Noah Gonzalez on Instagram: "I should’ve been better. . . . . Self loathing wraps its thorned quilt around me again while I look at a table of people around my age celebrating a birthday. There’s so many of them. At least 11. How do they all know each other and all seem so happy and seamless with their interactions? How can you know 11 people? Is that possible? Hugs and well wishes. Eye contact that looks comfortable and not painful. Life progress exchanges and congratulations. I’ve grown tired